please forgive the absence

i have been back in the states since the 2nd and it was an adventure.  the flight over was horrible because i had to sit by THAT person.  you know the one.  the one we all fear.

i had to come back to an packed up office and unpack it.  settle it.  and figure out where to begin to deal with all the work i had before me.  i now feel like it is a little bit under control.  not much, but under control.

there is has been some drama in our personal lives.  not between t and me but with friends that are now former friends.  never in my life did i think i would have to end a relationship with someone for acting horribly, again.  but apparently, i have had to do that and so have others in the group as well.  as an adult, it is definitely weird to make a decision that you no longer like someone and have actual reasons for it.  very weird.

did i mention that there is some family drama as well.  which means that i have to figure out how to calm important people down.  one person seems depressed, another is upset about someone else, and it goes on and on and on.  i don't like drama.  i like things calm, it helps me sleep and i don't feel my chest close up and get stressed out when things are calm.

all in all, my return has been somewhat stressful and not easy to get back into the routine.  my culture shock back into the states has subsided and i have resigned myself to the fact that it is hard to find a good cup of coffee, but i am back and glad to be with thomas again and surrounded by friends.  it will calm down.  i know.  but i want that to happen now...