February 2007 Archives

yesterday, instead of watching the oscars from the beginning, something i take very seriously, we went to a political rally to see obama.  i think his name is awesome.  and dude is hot.

i would like you to know that i stood in a crowd of 3000 people for two hours for a man who was late due to travel issues.  2 hours.  crowd of people.  hot.  whiny woman talking about her pain meds behind me.  people positioning for a better spot.  hot.  3000 people. 

thomas at one point complimented me on the fact that i had not had a mental breakdown and was not screaming at everyone around me to get away, get away!!!  we were tempted to leave and had set a deadline to do so, but obama showed up.  that dude is really hot.  d@mn.

he spoke.  i'd vote for him.  but i reserve the right to change my mind.  remember, i'm fickle.  and now, i can say that i have attended a political rally and didn't kill people there.  good times.

it dawned on me that some of life's finer moments that are truly funny occur during very awkward moments in life.  moments that while they are happening, are not funny, but instead cause pain or embarrassment.  but with time, with comparison of stories with friends, with distance, the moment is no longer awkward, but funny.

awkward: hard to deal with; especially causing pain or embarrassment (according to define: awkward at google)

one of my favorite moments in life was caused by my mother (who does not read this blog, at least, i don't think so).

seriously.  i have a photo.  several of them actually, and i think they are high-faluten entertainment.  but for whatever reason, my camera and this mac are not communicating very well right now.

so.  thomas is away and you think this mouse would play, but to be quite honest, i hate being alone.  i can do it, and i am fine with it, but in reality, i would much rather have company.  but alas.  none to speak of... and while thomas is eating indian food, i am watching cool hand luke on tv.

i do really love this movie.  i don't know why.  other than newman is hot.  i think i may get in the tub and read a while.  i also think i will never get a haircut since the stars have lined up against me and aquarius is singing about hair and crap. 

i have come to the realization that i am not an exciting person.  at least not right now.  maybe as the weather gets better i will be more fun.  maybe not.

i think the weekend in new york that is coming up will add some excitement to my life.  maybe my haircut this weekend.  or, as i am calling it, my hairwhack.

any suggestions to make my life seem more exciting?

i have nothing for you today but i thought that i would at least type something for those of you who stopped by to see if i had anything to say, which i don't.

i must say that i absolutely love heroes.  i think it is very clever.  creepy.  funny.  interesting.  heartbreaking.  really good stuff.

i still have nothing for you.

so.  like.  right now.  like.  i really want a coke.

i asked thomas earlier to make me a coke.  he opened the fridge and listed off what he could make me.  after each item, i said coke.  at the end of that discussion, there was no coke to be had.

he said we would get coke after the dishes were done.  well.  instead we celebrated chinese new year (happy new year!  year of the pig!).  and i drank tea and water.

i am now home.  no coke.  i.  want.  a.  coca.  cola.

thomas took me to sushi tonight for valentine's.  i swear that man loves me.  i am now stuffed and the happiest damn woman on planet earth right now.

i was watching part of a movie earlier this evening, before thomas got home, and i will put my review of it in the sidebar, can anyone say run-on sentence?  anywho, in the movie a character pulled out the tarot cards and did a reading which made me want to pull mine out and do a reading for me.  yep, the heron came up.  it says there will be an addition to the family.  i have baby on the brain.

thomas bought me the new norah jones cd.  i really like it.  it is lovely and i can't wait to put it on my ipod.

happy valentine's day.  love it or leave it, it is what it is.

thomas and i went to the movies this afternoon to see little children, which i conveniently stole the movie poster from amazon.com.  thank you very much.

i must say that we both walked away really loving the movie and its rich dynamic cast.  it is clearly a movie about people who have kids and how their lives intersect with each others and the differences they have.

but the movie definitely leaves you with an eerie feeling.  is this just a snapshot of what life is like for everyone?  is there a message?  are we supposed to make a change or are we supposed to just continue living in the snapshot we created for ourselves?  there is no answer to this question or any other you can pose while watching the film, but nonetheless, it is compelling to watch.

amazingly enough, i feel for each and every one of the characters in the film as they struggle to deal with their lives.  the screen writer is quite talented at portraying them with subtleties and making them sympathetic on some level, to some degree.  i can see why this film got some oscar nods.

there are lots of things i don't talk about on my blog because, well, it would be unethical and just plain not right to tell you the things my students do or say or confide in my.  and frankly, i have no desire to share that part of my life with the public.

there are also things i don't talk about with friends because it is hard to discuss or really makes for some awkward moments.  rarely do i ever bring them up because it definitely changes my relationship with people and it gives them a new perspective of me.  maybe i am scared of what they may come up with, maybe i just don't want that awkward pause where they process the information and then either brush it off or give me that look and think "oh."  thomas of course knows all of these things but he's special and never did either of those.

last week i was privy to a conversation that went awry.  well.  it did for me.  for everyone else present it was a standard conversation about something fascinating; but it made me anxious because it hit home a little too easily.  it wasn't my conversation so i couldn't say anything, not that i would have, but it was weird to hear someone else's thoughts, an objective thought, a thought from someone who has never had my experiences.  and it occurred to me how weird (yes, weird) my life has been.

and from that conversation, i suddenly understood the source to my anxiety.  not the trigger, but the actual source.  and i breathe a little easier now because of it.

should we start trying to have a baby?

sorry about the photos.  really.  i am.  the other laptop is still broken.

we watched some good old american idol tonight.  it occurred to me that there are two people on television that i cannot stand to watch or listen to.  i honestly think they are alien crack babies and i would much rather have a dentist yank all of my teeth out without anesthesia or be forced to eat my boogers.  really.  do you know who i am talking about?

paula abdul and bob costas.  i know that bob costas is not on that show.  but i realized that my disdain for paula is the same as it is for bob.  both of them should not be allowed to be on tv.  children should not have to endure their image.  in fact it is so bad, when i turned to thomas to get bob costas' name, i asked him who was the sports caster i disliked as much as paula... you know, the a$$.  his response: bob costas.

why must i watch these people on tv?  who do i have to sleep with in hollywood to get both of them off of my tv?  i am willing to sacrifice and take one for humanity and sleep with george clooney if it means they go...  ok.  i'd sleep with him for free.  but my point is: why, god, why?

i love people watching in cafes, bars, restaurants, malls.  airports are awesome for this.  but sometimes, your hair won't let you go out in public and it is way to cold to brush your hair.  so i resort to watching tv.

i watch a lot of tv and a lot of movies.  more than you all probably know or care to know.  case in point.  thomas was asking some obscure movie questions last night at dinner.  i nailed them all.  the bad ones included.

so when i can't be out to watch people, i tend to enjoy shows that have very spectacular characters.  grey's anatomy, gilmore girls, lost, heroes, etc.  all of these shows have a story line and such, but the thing that is striking about each one of them is the characters.  how they are extreme thrown into weird situations that are developed over time.  i love this.  i love seeing them mingle and connect.

i personally have never needed a show or the mall to tell me everything about someone i am watching.  it is enough to figure them out for the situation they are in and then work with it.  the past comes with time... it is the current reaction that is fascinating.