the european adventures

i'm all packed.  i have everything i need to leave.  i have suitcases and passport and computer.  i have all my supplies and teaching material and books and camera and plenty of socks and panties to survive 7 weeks.  but i have this nagging feeling that i am forgetting something.

you know that feeling you get when you go over your checklist and over it, and over it, and over it.  and everything checks off.  you packed the toothbrush, you packed the socks and plenty of panties, wait, i already checked that off.

but i just know that something isn't quite right.  something isn't there.  something is being left behind.  oh.  it isn't something.  it is my someone.  my someone who doesn't get to go with me this year.  who doesn't get to stay with me for 7 weeks or any of it.  my someone is staying behind.  i will miss you, my someone.  i will continue to feel like i have left you behind, that somehow, i forgot to pack you, that you should be right there beside me.  i love you, my someone.