holy smokes!: May 2006 Archives

i have one question.  how?

now.  initially, it looks insignificant.  i mean, how is such a simple question.

but when someone writes a book that was clearly written to be sold to the movie makers.  and it is a bestseller and people have read the book over and over again, all the while saying they can't wait for the movie.

so.  how?  how can you mess up the one thing that is handed to you?  handed to you on a silver platter.

i haven't seen it.  but from all the reviews, i am not so sure that i want to.  and really, if you read the book, it reads like a movie script.  how?

so.  i am leaving soon.  and after today, i don't know if i should reveal that bit of information.  big brother is watching.

well.  you see.  i was informed about f@cebook today and all its capabilities.  wow.  yep.  i was told about the stalkings.  the sanctions.  the firings.  yes.  that's right.  people got dooced for their f@cebook photos.

so.  i don't think it is in my best interest to let you know my whereabouts.  that i may or may not be leaving the country.  that i may or may not be writing this. 

i don't know who is watching.  BIG BROTHER.  i don't know who is reading this.  i don't know if i am going to get dooced for a job that i may or may not rant about.   do you think the fact that i recently purchased george orwell's 1984 may have anything to do with my paranoia?  do you?

i am angry right now.  let me see how many ways i can put it without pulling out a thesaurus.  irate.  pissed off.  put out.  mad.  seeing white.  grrr.  i could spit.

look at that.  i am so upset (hey another one) that i can't think of other words to describe my disgruntled (one more) sentiment.

you see.  i don't like it when people make decisions for me.  make that decision common knowledge, and then i find out about through a third party.  it irks (i rock) me.  i personally feel that i should be in on any decision that affects me and my life in any way.  even if i don't get to decide on the outcome, people should have learned from their momma's long ago that common courtesy says to let the interested parties know before it is announced to everyone else.

just let me know.  i never knew how hard that is to ask of people.  until this year.  apparently, i got a lesson that others didn't get.  next thing you know, i'll find out from a friend that thomas signed me up to donate my organs... tomorrow.

UPDATE: i think i am over it now.  i don't need to be worked up over this.  i am sure that at some point i will find a positive in the situation but right now i have other things on my plate to worry about.  and all the anger will do anyway is lead to an anxiety attack.  so.  i have refocused my energy on something else.